I'm Yours by Jason Mraz

Jason Mraz

My newest obsession is Jason Mraz. I love..love... LOVE his song "I'm Yours". To add to this new obsession is that I absolutely LOVE his video. I have put this song on repeat all day long. Theres something about the vibe that invokes such a happy, care free spirit. A spirit that I want to have.. now & always. The video, where he is just bumming around,--THIS is the feeling and experience I want to have in life. That life is a fun & interesting ride-- and just relax and ride the wave. Life will happen as long as you let go. No worries.. only happiness. All that good stuff...

SATC

I CAN NOT BELIEVE i'm saying this.. but yes... I broke down and saw the SATC movie. Friendship, love, and shopping. How could any girl not love SATC? I hate to admit it.. but I bawled like a baby! I dont want to be a spoiler (for the 2 of you who haven't seen it yet)-- so if you haven't seen it... stop reading!

The scene where she is pounding Big with the flowers--- was a waterfall of tears for me. Especially when she screamed "I knew you couldn't do it!!" I just KNEW how she felt in that moment. Its that moment when your scared to give yourself up--but you do anyway.. and you find that the person you gave yourself to lets you down. I cried the most at the ending. It gave me hope and was an awaking for me as well. Mostly, I cried because I know that it will never be my ending-- at least not with my "Mr. Big".

Everyone can relate to SATC because even if your "Mr. Big" ain't that "big" in real life... he was the one who stole your heart. The one that you had no logic with and the one that you just convinced yourself to stay with beyond all reason. Everyone has (or will have) at least one Mr. Big. I still haven't decided if my mr.big was a good experience or a bad one. The older I get, the more confused I get about everything. I guess one day Ill figure it all out.... but until then.. I always have my friends and shopping!

PREGNANT?

These past few days I've been so bloated that I had almost convinced myself that I was pregnant. I KID YOU NOT. How?? Immaculate conception I suppose-- but the other day I had actually convinced myself that I MIGHT be pregnant. I googled "signs and symptoms of pregnancy" and was sure that I had all the symptoms (mainly - the small basket ball sized bulge coming out of my lower stomach). I was about to get a pregnancy test when... I got my period. Turns out that I just need to do more cardio. Off to the gym......eeerrr....

"I've fallen and I can't get up!"

Since I made my big move a few weeks ago into my new "single women studio"-- I had a small epiphany from a very benign accident. I was trying to install my new curtain rods, reaching as high as my tiny 5'2'' frame would allow me. I was feeling exceptionally proud and independent. Whereas normally, I would have a man (or MY man to be exact) help me install something like this.. I was doing it all on my own! When suddenly, as I was on my tiptoes, I lost my balance---slipped and fell! My lower back and left tricep slammed against the corners of my wooden chest placed at the side of the window. As I rolled in pain, I couldn't help but think about that old lady in the Life call commercials in the 80's. Is this the way its going to be? Single... alone.. on the floor with no one able to help me? As I lay on the floor, visions of SATC lifestyle washed out of my mind and fear set in. I don't want to be the Life call lady! I dont know exactly how this incident has helped me in the long run--But I at least know that I dont want to give up men forever! Having a man may have its own down falls and pains, but at least someone will be able to call 9-1-1 for you!
Needless to say, my cell phone has been within arms reach ever since!

A New Earth

Just in case anyone has/has not noticed--My last entry was in February. LOTS has happened since then. Mainly, moved out of my apartment with my ex that I shared for the past 2&1/2 years & living on my own in NYC! Another major event is that I turned 30! eek!! Please-- I swear, if anyone mentions SATC i'm going to have to vomit.

But its true, life (as I knew it) has changed in so many ways. One of the books that has really helped me through the past few months is A New Earth. Yes, I know.. another Oprah book. **sigh** But believe me, its not as hokey as The Secret! The basic principle is that it teaches people to live in the NOW. It has helped me tremendously in figuring out the meaning of true happiness. To appreciate life and to be content you must live in the present. Nothing is certain --worrying about the future or the past won't change a thing. The only reality is the NOW. Its hard to live like that.. (especially in neurotic/ADD/self-absorbed NYC) but i'm learning. As for right now... its working! Lets see... its either this or old DVD's of SATC!~

Reese Witherspoon

Ok.. I already think Reese Witherspoon is a smart, cute, and funny lady. But after I saw her interview regarding her newly produced movie (Penelope) on Good Morning America ....I love her even more! The basis behind Penelope is about a little girl (named Penelope) who has inherited a pig-like snout for a nose due to a family curse.



Here's a piece of the interview that I just LOVED:

Reese W: The character Penelope really spoke to me.. Finding what is really beautiful about you. What your perceived imperfections are.



GMA: Children are sometimes very cruel to someone who is very different.

Reese W: Oh yeah. I think we all sort of deal with that. In our own childhood or in raising children. But that is sort of an informative experience. I wouldn't want any of my children to miss out on that teasing or bulling. Don’t you think it kind of makes you who you are? When you don’t’ make the soccer team? And you cant....That is thing that kind of drives me crazy about today. Right? Where everyone wins the award. Everyone's the MVP. NO! THERE NOT! OK! I distinctly recall the 2 weeks of crying because I didn't make the softball team. It made me interesting. You know?



Dude!! I love that. She was totally saying what I was ranting about a few blog posts back (aka: Dove ad). You don't need to change a definition of what something really is. Just be confident in yourself and see things for what they are. Be happy and work with what you got... because its good enough! You can't be the best at everything! It's impossible. So what if your not the most superficially beautiful person in the world? You dont have to change the definition to feel good about yourself. Find out what is amazing about you... so what if its not superficial?